YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME

2010-07-08T21:44:00.004+08:00

爱是每一个人都需要的东西。
爱可以让一个人失去所有的理智，让一个人疯狂。
有些人的爱来得很容易，可是。。有些人的爱，从满了等待。
当爱来得时候，没人能阻止或抗拒。

我爱上了，一个我不应该爱的人。
当我选择和他在一起时，我就知道要付出代价。
代价即时是全世界的人讨厌我，我也愿意。
因为，他是我字典里的好男人。

我希望，大家别错过自己的幸福。
因为，当我们后悔时，那个人有可能已经不在。

珍惜你眼前的人。

2010-06-29T20:38:00.002+08:00

I didnt know why i started blogging again , but i really needed a corner to spill all my emotions & feelings . Do i really looked so cold ? No one would know , because even the one who had once been with me wouldnt know . I was feeling so super guilty , which people would think im trying to win their sympathy with it . The more i explained , the more things go wrong . So , I didnt wanted to think of that guilt , because i didnt want to apologise . But , my iTunes would always play songs that reminded me of you , even now . Im sorry for whatever i did , i really didnt mean to hurt you . After saying this , hopefully the guilt would vanish . & i wont ever turn back & look at you again .

You never had know me ♥

2010-01-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to that guy who had invaded my world .

I still remembered 4 years ago , we're just strangers sitting in the same pavilion .

At that time , we didnt talk much & we dont even know each other .

But destiny was really making fun of us .

I met you again , 4 years later . In a pavilion again & you took my number .

Everything was like fated to be like this . I just broke up with my ex at that time & i really needed someone to be there for me .

& that role became yours .

We msged every night , chatted every night & i began to take you as a replica of my ex .

& i cheated your feelings . I went back to my ex's side after 1 month of your great care .

But you didnt blamed me . In the end , that ex cheated my feelings again . & i went back to you . But you still took me back to your side .

I lied to you , cheated your feelings & you forgive me . You took me back .

I was really touched by what you did , & i began to fell for you , that real you .

I still remember how we spent our First Valentine Day .

I still remember how i sniff you .

Baby , thanks for being through with me for all this time .

& i wanted to say , i love you . Great thanks .

Everyone should be thinking who that great guy was . He accepted me even though i hurt him deeply .

That retarded guy was DSWL .

Baby , thanks .

2009-12-25T21:26:00.001+08:00

Ok , just came back from shopping from Parkway with family .

Want to big thanks my daddy for buying me & my brother iphone .
Thanks ;D

2009-12-25T13:01:00.002+08:00

My whole family life is screwed up today . We supposed should be on our way to Malaysia & shop like hell .

Everybody returned home today & rush to pack all the stuffs .

Mummy asked me to write the custom thingy .

So halfway doing , i realise my daddy's passport had expired .

Everybody was so freaking shag . -.-

Yesterday was fun .

Went ktv at Katong with the usuals from 12 - 2

After that went to pool awhile than slack at a corner .

Some went home early , leaving me & some behind .

We went to play Lan .
LOLS .

We played vesus game in Life 4 Dead .

Such a noob at first , but i become a pro after that OK !

Ok , finally went home at 7+ am .

Boyf & others should be sleeping like a pig now .

& finally ,

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE .

2009-12-22T01:39:00.002+08:00

Just finished mahjong session with boyf , Jon , Nigel , Jordy & my brother .

Nigel & Jordy win money , run away early .

After that , boyf & brother took over .

My sickening brother won so much , bobian . Beginner's luck . Once in awhile .

My boyf , didnt win a single round . Lost 2O bucks ?!? Damnn shit .

I lost a few bucks only . ;D

Damnn shit , i actually got all 万 . SOOOOO BIG !

In the end , Jon win with full Tai .

My sickening brother was holding my tiles ! Shit ass .

But fun lahs , cause those boys keep disiao me .

I was so tired during the game , blur until i mistook the rat into rabbit .

They laugh at my like fcuk . -.-

Ok , i'm so tired .

Ciao

O levels results coming out soon .
I sincerely hope & wish & comfirm that those 混蛋王八蛋和臭鸡蛋 will fail .

Byes .
<3s>

2009-12-21T01:52:00.002+08:00

Ok , just finished playing viwawa at my house with boyf .

Went to Mrs Tay house just now . Its fun .

Could see all familiar faces ;}

Actually planned to play mahjong in the early morning with others .

But cancelled , too tired .

Gonna go back school to pass up my form & popular to buy my books .

Hope i dont overslept again .

Need to have a good sleep now ,

Ciao

2009-12-20T04:06:00.002+08:00

Ok , just watched finish Avatar with my boyf , mum & brother .

From 1am to 4am , thats why i am still blogging right now .

The show was so fucking nice ! Serious*

I even wanted to watch a second time !

Grade : 5/5

Shall blog when i wake up *

Ciaos

2009-12-18T18:30:00.007+08:00

Ok , got my results . But before i talk about it , i got to say how messed up i was in the morning .

I woke up at 12 pm & thought that i have alot of time , since i need to be in school at 2 pm .

So i slowly stroll to the bathroom & slowly take a look at myself .

In the end , i realise my hair was coloured ! & i forget about buying a black spray !

I rush & rush , but i know it will be too late if i buy it myself .

Begged my brother to run to NTUC to buy .

In the end rush to Jon's house by cab to ask him help me to spray .

Reach there & Jon & Nigel was so relax * Take note : The time is already 1.45 .

Jon then slowly scroll go bath & after that all of us help each other to spray . In the end Jordy's Hair was messed up by Nigel .

But bobian , no time . So we just went to school in that shape .

Reach school , & teacher stop us from going into the hall .
Why : Hair coloured . Thus we need to wait till the end then our turn to take results .

Wth ? I spent money on Spray , Cab & now still cannot go in . -.-

Ok , then all of us sat at the canteen , together with Ruwei & others .

All of us were so stressed up . Finally our turn to go hall .

I was so stress up till i almost cried * The tears were there already .

In the end , Mrs Ng pass me my report book .

It says PROMOTED .

Know whats the first thing i shouted ?

I PASS ! I PASS ! I shouted damnn loud . Damnn dramatic . -.-

Eng : 4
Humanities : 3
Mathematics : 4
Science : 4
Art : 5
Chinese : 2

Total points : 17

I know it wasnt great , but i'm contented .

Because all along , i really didnt believe that i could pass .

My mathematics & humanities & Science are always failing , so i didnt believe that i could actually pass .

I really tried my best in improving them .

I want to thanks my Maths tuition teacher for teaching me great maths . He actually could make my maths from 1 digit num to B4 . Thanks !

I want to thanks Mrs Ng , Mrs Haniff , Miss Lim , Mrs Siva , Mrs Koh , Mrs Tay , for not giving me up in the end . Even at the last minute they still help us to revise . Thanks !

Now , i passed my first obstacle in life .

Ok , Jonathan told me something that is so bastard .

He came across someone's personal message saying
" How can anyone fail N levels ? "

Dont be Egotistical .

So what if you pass ?

Those who failed include your friends too .
How can you be so Insensitive of their feelings .

You made me think that you're such a bastard

2009-12-17T14:32:00.004+08:00

Today woke up late , because he didnt woke me up today .

Its such a nice day today , damnn windy & black . Ideal for sleeping .

Boyf called me yesterday from Malaysia , saying that he may come back singapore today .

Hope he does , because he promised to accompany me to get my results tomorrow .

Countdown to N lvl : 1 day
Mood : Anxious

I realise that without him , my day is such a boring one .

Started playing Cafe World from facebook yesterday . My cousin asked me to joined . Not bad .

Damnn hard to level my Pet Society . -.- Pissed *

Just recieved a mail , from Navy . About me joining Navy .

They'll pay for my school fees & etc .

In return , i work for them . The benefits & pay is good .

Daddy asked me to think about it .

But whole Singapore N level students get that too , do i even get a chance ?

♥ misses him

2009-12-17T01:28:00.003+08:00

I didnt blogged for so long & my blog became so dead .
I was like rusty in using blogger . Was editing my skin for so long .
My boyf went to malaysia again . Thus , i'm so freaking boring now .
Getting N Level results in 1 day more , so damnn excited .
Would only have 3 expressions when i walk out of the school .
Either i would Cry , Laugh , Or Expressionless .

2009-10-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged . Anyway , its my holidays now , but i arent free either . Will be working from next week onwards at CK Tangz .

Just dyed my hair brown with ash highlights . Damnn shag with my hair colour .

Thanks Dexter mom for the pizza hut dinner , & the movie tickets . Haeundae : The Deadly Tsunami was a nice show . Recommended . I cried in the theater *

2009-08-04T21:09:00.003+08:00

Sorry that i didnt post for a long time , was busy with school .

What would you do , if you found out that your mum wasn't your mum anymore ?

In the past , i use to think that my mum was annoying . But now , i realise i wanted her back to her old self again . Was that possible ? Imagine , having to peep at your mum messages everyday , to check if she was messaging that third party . Imagine , finding out that she kept so many dirty secrets from you . Imagine , having to find out that they did terrible things , & your mum was using it to threathened the third party's girlfriend .

At first , i thought i could keep it as a secret ,
but now , i'm thinking again .

2009-06-14T02:55:00.005+08:00

爱到底是什么？爱会有回报吗？

这些问题一直在我的脑海中里闪过。我问过自己，什么是爱？
爱对我来说是付出而不渴望或期望会有回报。
当你真的爱上一个人的时候，你会为了他做任何事情。
我在爱的游戏里是一个Gameover的人。

老天爷对我还不错。
当我最寂寞的时候，他给了我一个好人。

这些日子里我发现，我真的有问题。
因为不想再过一个人的生活，我太在乎一切。
因为害怕失去，抓住他真的好紧。

沈暐量！
谢谢你所为我做的一切。
抱歉我好不听你的话。
感激你对我的在乎。
珍惜你对我的爱。

2009-06-13T01:02:00.007+08:00

I wanted to thank Bingjie , for helping me even though hes not related to me . He thinks its not worth of me being said like that . Thanks , for everything . (I'll treat you donuts .)

& finally , which i owe a big thanks to . Darl , i knew that you felt ashamed with what they spammed . I am sorry for making you feel ashamed . But thanks for believing me & helping me even though you knew the truth . You know what ? Whenever i needed you , you never failed to appear & help me . I had never met a guy like you . You're willing to wait for me hours at a void deck , drinking bottles of peach tea doing nothing . You're willing to lend a ear to me & accompany me even though i lied to you . Even though we had a big fight , & i ran away , you're still willing to search for me everywhere . You're willing to accompany me till late everynight making me sleep . Even though you only had the money left to buy your lunch , you still bought food for me to eat , instead of yourself . Baby , thanks for everything you had done . Thanks ..

2009-05-23T10:29:00.004+08:00

Hasnt been blogging for quite a few days , because i was just soooooo lazy . Am i a terrible person ? Breaking someone's bowl of rice which feeds the family . Am i in the wrong ? Or should i continue ? I dont know , i really dont . Theres this guiltyness within me which made me think twice .

"Keep Holding On"
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

2009-05-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

Okays , school was indeed boring today . Had my english Oral && thank god that everything went smoothly . I am sooooo bored , && suddenly had that passion for blogging .

I realise that everything change through the years . I seen a few old friends && they changed alot throughout the years . But why am i still the same ? OR i didnt realised i had changed ?

I just wanna suppress myself within me .

2009-05-18T21:08:00.001+08:00

Finally , today is a peaceful . Because you didnt have any reasons to catch me . ;P . But can you just stop staring at me ? Your eyes seriously looks so bitchy .
After school went to watch movie with darling && it was a nice show .
Lazy to blog , Ciao

2009-05-17T23:28:00.003+08:00

Gosh , i was soooooo busy this few days that i didnt blog . && I was suppose to blog about a bitch on friday night , which i was soooo busy to do so .
Just went for dinner with family && dexter tag along with us . It was fun . On the way there we saw a school field caught on fire .

&& the first thing that came to my mind was , i wish her kitchen down down too .
Wondering whats that bitch going to do tomorrow to me . Anyway , i just wish your whole family is off better dead .

2009-05-14T16:39:00.002+08:00

Today school made me sooooo pissed off . Okays , today my post will be all about me bitching someone .

What the hell you want ? Seriously you made me pissed off . When you needed help were you like that ? When troubles come , you pushed the blames to us . Today i finally see how fucking bitch you were . You were the most smarmiest person i ever met , seriously . You're such a hypocrite ! Today when there was a outsider , you treated us sooooooo "nice" . But when the outsider is gone ? Your whole face changed lahs ! Its just like what Bianda said . Your face is like Makeup Remover . Okays , let me tell you here , i am sooooooo not happy with you . Sooooo ? Are you giving me red beta form ? Oh my gosh , i am sooooooo scared . Am i talking about you ? Or are you guilty of it ? Lols , over-sensitive bitch . Oops ! I scolded you bitch , but do you think i care ? I seriously dont give a damn about it . Than ? What can you do ? Throw red paper at me ? Lols .

&& another thing !
Please buy JiaJia SoyaSauce !
New Brand , New Taste .

Replies to tags

Nigel : Ticket money please !
PengSiew : Hey , i am a professional okays ! Dont doubt my camera skills ! ;P You noob !
Jon : Yes , you guys should !

2009-05-13T20:19:00.003+08:00

Today school was sooooo abnormal seriously . Time just flies soooooo fast in a blink . After school meet Dexter at bus stop && Cedric fighted with Yuehan . Sooooooo boliao && i am soooooo hungry that i munch my bread while they were fighting . Alot people went there . At first its just a few of us than suddenly out of the sudden , Jon brought alot of people come && watch free show . After that show i rushed home immediately because i am having tuition at 4.30 . Tuition teacher says i am smart , but lazy . ;P . Hahs !

After tuition rushed out to buy Weishan's birthday present with Dexter . After buying meet my parents for dinner together . && we followed them to NTUC to buy things . && i brought my favourite Ice-Cream ! Haagen-Dazs Belgian Chocolate ! OMFG ! WOW ! ;P I am seriously sooooo craving for it ! Okays ! I am gone now ! Gonna enjoy my Ice-Cream with boyfriend .

Replies to tagboard
PengSiew : Its not that i am too professional in taking ugly side of people . Its just that you're basically ugly ! ;P Neh neh ni pupu .

Clarissa Ling : Sorry that didnt ask you along ! Join us next time okays ? Thanks ! You must take care too ! Meet me up soon okays ?

2009-05-12T14:48:00.003+08:00

Just woke up from my afternoon sleep . Yawns && you're right . I am sick , came home in the morning . Damnn paisehs , i sooooo sick until i cried . Alamaks ! Daddy fetched me && he brought me to the doctors than home . I just woke up because i was soooo tired that i fall asleep && the first thing i search for when i wake up is my macdonals . I am sooooo sick , but i am still gonna blog about today man ! Theres something that totally pissed me off .

What kind of teacher do you think you are ? You're seriously sick in mind . I am soooooo sick && you only gave me panadols to munch . && i only got worst after that but you still didnt allow me to go home . What if i dies in school ? Are you going to hold the responsibilty ?

Jonathan just called me about something else that pissed me off today . Can you dogs please kindly fcuk off ? Why soooooo fierce behind Dexter than infront of Dexter is so humji ? Seeing this make me almost puke , seriously .

What freaking world are we actually living in now . Seriously , i cant imagine && i dont wish to imagine . I am soooooo tired , falling back asleep .

Just finish my dinner && playing my facebook games as usual .

Thanks baby for taking care of me since afternoon . Thanks for taking care of me this sick pig ;D

2009-05-11T21:02:00.006+08:00

Today woke up early in the morning && the first thing i saw is my dearest boyfriend . Woke up && bathed after that sit bus to parkway to meet Jon , Peng , Jack , Jordy . Went arcade to play play awhile && after that take bus to Geylang to eat frog legs . Damnn hot the weather there . Take our own sweet time to eat . Pengsiew && others damnn paisehs . Eat until the whole table && bowls all soooo dirty . I bet i am the only one with the cleanest plate ! ;D After that we went walking 1 round around geylang . After that we split up cause Baby needa pass something to his sister at Cityhall . After passing , we took mrt home . On the way brother called me saying that someone picked up house phone && didnt talk which no ones home . So me , didi && mummy was damnn scared dont dare go home . Lols .

Something pissed me off now . What are you to say that i am ill-mannered ? Who is she to talk about me . No one has ever said i'am proud . No one has ever said that i am ill-mannered . Whenever i see elderlys , i greet . Understood elderly ?Let me tell you now , you have NO RIGHTS to comment on me . Its the same feeling like you didnt want me to comment on you . Somemore i dont even know you , so who are you to comment on me ?

2009-05-10T21:40:00.013+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !
Today Dexter came to my house early in the morning && i am still sleeping . Woke up && wash up && we went out after that . Went walk walk && around 5 plus we rush to buy my mummy's 4D . After that we came home && daddy came to fetch us to eat at Bedok . The food was delicious ! ;D

Some ass spammed my baby's blog . && you must be soooo honoured i am posting about you in my blog . Let me tell you , you little brat . If you have balls come to our front && tell us who you are . No point saying so much nonsense in blog since you dont even have the balls to write your real name . Telling how big you are in com is no use && its pointless because you're just acting gangster && hiding behind the computer . Whats the era now ? Still spamming people's blog ? I bet you must be no life to the core . Maybe you're too free in the morning to spam people's blog because you work in the night at Changi or Geylang rights ? Let me tell you soooo straight , you're just a brat without balls . I seriously despise people like you . Not happy with me ? Spam my blog , && i am waiting for you to . Because i know you are either a DUCK OR CHICKEN whos too free . && i do entertain you guys . (: because you didnt know i am crazy in mind .

SOOOO FCUK OFF FROM OUR SIGHT .

2009-05-09T22:10:00.008+08:00

Friday 08/05/09
School was sooooo boring && after school was soooooo funny . Yuehan had problems with my boyfriend && my boyfriend slapped him the first thing he came out . Everything started with a dog word . Soooo dexter told him to crawl && bark like a dog for a long distance OR 1 on 1 with him . && Guess what Yuehan chose ? He rather crawl like a dog ! Gosh , he really stood down , legs && hands on the floor all ready to crawl . OMFG lahs . Damnn paisehs . Lols . Something happened in the night after that . Cedric called dexter telling him that Yuehan asked him wuji lai && other ridiculous thing . After a long conference , Yuehan wanted to fight 1 on 1 with Cedric && all of them agreed . They msged Dexter comfirming time && place . In the end cancel ? Wanna know why ? Because Yuehan says he going malaysia with family . In the end i called him today , he said cancel . SOOOO FAKE . On phone soooo fierce , in the end ?

Saturday 09/05/09
Happy Birthday to Mummy !
I hope you like the ring , earring && braclet we brought for you && it cost us a bomb ! Sorry that its for both your birthday && mother's day . But we hope you love the presents . Thanks for being such a great mother . Even though we did so much wrong things but you never give up on us . (: Thanks . Stay pretty && happy .
Today went 201 to alter brother's npcc pants && my skirt . After that went to cut my brother's hair . && my brother finally got his mushroom hair cutted . ;D && He used colour wax for styling . All along the way , me && dexter keep snap his new hair , telling him how handsome he was && my brother damnn blushy all the way . Lols !

My dear precious boyfriend , thanks for all the love && care you shown on me .
I love you .

2009-05-06T22:15:00.005+08:00

Today school was sooooo easy lahs ! Exams aren't hard either . (: So i should be getting good marks , should be . After school , daddy fetched me home with Dexter . Bathed && went out to meet XianRong , Saed . Was meeting Ling today but she was late ! ;P ROARRS ! Meet her at 4 , at inter . Went walking around && we went spying someone instead . Lols . Walk around till i meet my parents && we ate dinner together . Than they pei me to Lovely Land buy things && i was like just take ? ;O . After that , we went home , sooooo bored now .
My ling is seriously soooooo hot now ! ;O

2009-05-05T20:11:00.002+08:00

Problems began to surface now && everything dont seem to be wonderful anymore . Becoming more && more sick about everything . What the hell is going on now ? Just wanna break off with all this fucking problems . Those people who gossips behind my back , please just kindly fuck off . I dont blame you for not knowing any knowledge about that subject because you're a retard who didnt even tried it before .

2009-05-03T21:19:00.002+08:00

I finally knew that god didnt took things away from me , he just changed it to a better one . He took the bad one away , && gave me a good one instead . I got a good one now && i believe i did . He treat me real nice , thanks

Thanks for being there for me when i am in tears .
Thanks for being there for me even though i cheated on you .
Thanks for being there for me when i fall real hard on the ground .
Thanks for being there && listen to my naggings .
Thanks for being there && let me throw temper on you .
Thanks for accompanying me till real late every night .

Thanks for everything && i'll cherish it real lots .

I love you , DSWL

2009-05-01T23:03:00.005+08:00

Today is a sweet day for me . Had a date with Dex , && i am speaking soo loud to everybody . Because ? Hes a great guy , extinct dinasaur .

He met me today at my house && went to find his mummy . So sweet of his mummy , she gave me presents . ;D A antique perfume bottle , picture will be posted later because i am lazy now . After that we went to his sister house to take care of his doggie , beefy . Its seriously sooooo cute lahs . He licked my ass . T.T . We feed him && walk him after that . After everything we went to Old Airport Road to have our dinner . Its sooooo sweet lahs .

2009-04-30T21:06:00.003+08:00

Tada ! Above picture is done by Kee Ruwei , && i am the person who gave the idea . No offence*

Today i am sooooo boring in school . After school , brother told me he had problems with another guy , thus i must go confront him . But nothing happened in the end . After that went Pizza hut with Jordy , Dex , Cedric , Freddie , XianRong to dabao pizza back to school . Jordy treated us ! Hooray for Jordy ! ;D THANKS ! Stayed in school to play badminton , duhhs .

I am sooooo freaking bored now at home . Tomorrow is holiday ! Movie day for me ! ;DD

2009-04-29T20:21:00.006+08:00

Today school was as boring as usual . && i got back my 2.4km timing , its 13 minutes . Woo ! ;D . Slept for so many classes in school today , but i didnt sleep for maths , i listened .

After school went with Jeriel to Century Square to print his photos , and he soooooo doodoo , dont know how to use the machine . Dex meet me there && we split up with Jeriel . Went to meet my mum with Dex && we went to do some things , Confidential*.

Came home after that && went out again with family to makan . My brother applied for tutition at 1oo+ . && my mum && dad is sooooooo crazy fan of the 7pm show on channel 8 .

Mummy got me maths tuition , gosh . Terrible .

Sometimes i wonder , why is it so not fair ?

2009-04-28T20:00:00.007+08:00

Today school was actually quite fun . Had so much kids fun with Ruwei , Jiaxin in Maths class . Jiaxin childish lahs !&& dont worry , i wont be sooooo bad to post a soya sauce picture in my blog ! Lols . ;x Painted my art work today , but was totally so hard lahs . Serious , gonna mix here && there , so mafan . After my art , chiong to F&N room to taste classmates's N lvl course work food . The food wasnt really nice && i thought Nigel's food taste the best . Serious ! Even though it has the ugliest appearance but it was the best ! (: After that chiong to my Oral , i was late . ;x . But heng everything goes well for me , Mdm See says Good Job . ;P .

After Oral went to meet Dexter , XianRong , Syed at school bus stop . We split up at my house here because i wanted to bath first . After bathing meet them again at Dex's house . After meeting up , we went TM to eat && Jason came . After that slack slack awhile && i am back home now .

&& I feel so emotional now .

当爱你的人不爱你的时候，你不会感到痛和苦。

但是当你爱的人不爱你的时候，那感觉不之痛苦，那感觉对你是死亡降临。

当你说爱我的时候，你是认真的吗？

还是说，都是骗局。

我看世上只有我那么傻，明知是假的，我也不见意。

可是，我知道现在的我不会这么傻了。

我子会更傻，更笨，地把那份感情藏在心里。

再见了，我爱的人，可是不爱我的人。

JIAXIN CHILDISH

2009-04-27T21:51:00.006+08:00

Gosh , today school is sooooo bored . After school went bugis with Bianda , Dex , XianRong , Jason && another guy which i dont know his name . Sat bus 14 till Dbg Mrt station && we sat Mrt to Orchard to find my mum . Took money from her && we went Lucky Plaza to eat because Bianda misses the Red Tea Jelly . Its nice . (: Went walking around till my my mum end her work at 6 . && she brought us to ArtFriend located at Taka to buy my && Bianda's paint .

We had a long time choosing the colours . && The total cost is 101 bucks for both mine && Bianda . The above things actually costed me 65 bucks ; Daler Rowney .

So looking forward to tomorrow . Whys ? Because i have 3 hours to paint tomorrow && after painting i will be having Chinese Oral . Duhhs , && teacher last minute inform us . Fcuked !

&& RUWEI HATES PEOPLE TOUCHING HER !

Hanging on hurts more than letting go .

我看开了，真的。♥

2009-04-26T22:47:00.003+08:00

Today didnt went out for whole day , was rotting . Daddy came to fetch us around 7 plus to dined at hougang with mummy . I am seriously so freaking bored ; rotting .

Tomorrow school liaos , damnn fast . After school meeting Dex , XianRong go bugis . For ? Buy my freaking idiotic paint . Gonna meet mummy first , cause shes the one paying .

世上没有永恒的爱情，就当自己傻一次吧！
Theres no forever in love , just treat yourself for being silly this once .

2009-04-25T23:36:00.006+08:00

Today went out with Jyss friend . Its damnn wierdo feeling when we met up , like strangers ? && typically today i have no idea why i saw so much Jyss people along the way . I didnt see them before at all other than today ok . Wierd . Anyway we caught a movie at TM , 17 Again . Its a great show man ! You guys should catch it ! ;D After show we went to Tamp1 walk awhile && we split up because i'm meeting Dexter && Jason to slack . I went home after slacking awhile , because ? Simply because i am bored , lazy && tired .

Has been doing this current blogskin for hours , truth ! I know its so damnn long , because i am really a newbie in doing skins . Serious . Duhhs . I just finished typing my stupid geography work . && At least i did my job , && its much more than those who sarcastically hinted me that i didnt .

Every tears that i dropped , are death && pain to me

2009-04-24T22:44:00.004+08:00

Today after school went eat with Jon , Peng , Jordy , Xiang , Jackass , Nick at East Coast Park && we ate duck rice , yummy ! But didnt have much appetite cause i am soooo sick . After eating , Jordy , Xiang && me went to Jon's house . For ? MAHJONG SESSION ! ;D .

Played till 7 plus && i really lost alot , but heng got Jordy ! ;D He helped me alot ! Thanks man !
After that cabbed home with Dexter && XianRong because they Npcc in school and once we reached tamp , we split up . Because i am going to dined with my family . After dining , went home to digest my food && change to P.E . Whys ? Because i am running at the park downstairs my house with Dex , XianRong ! ;D . I did it ohkays ! I ran 15 rounds ! Even Dex && XianRong lost to me ohkays ! ;DD . I am sooooo glad man !

Just reached home , && bath finished . Currently lying on my bed && searching for new blogskins . (:

2009-04-23T13:07:00.002+08:00

I have been rotting at home for 2 days .
Gosh , being sick was so bored .
Gonna stay at home , and rot .
&& my phone hasnt been ringing .
I am bored , very bored .

2009-04-22T14:42:00.003+08:00

This few days are so unlucky for me, got sick and so much things happened . Sigh .

If theres 2 road ahead , one is with a trap and the other is a safe one , which will you choose ?
If you didnt know theres a trap at one of it and you walked over it , you're careless .
If you know theres a trap and you kept walking to it , you're stupid .

2009-04-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

Today was another boring school day . After school went to Tm walk walk with Ruwei , Xiaofong , Holly , Jeriel , Dexter . And we went to Toys R Us , and Jeriel , Dexter hit me with that long long thing . Assholes .

I see no point carry on since you're not with me anymore .
&& I miss you lots . Please dont ignore me .

2009-04-18T23:24:00.001+08:00

I could only say , I'am sorry .
Please just trust me .
Please . . .

2009-04-17T18:23:00.003+08:00

Today i came across something .

放弃一个很爱你的人,并不痛苦。

放弃一个你很爱的人，那才痛苦。

爱上一个不爱你的人，那是更痛苦。

别等到错过后才后悔，别等到失去后才想挽回."

I really didnt understand what i want . I only know i love you and thats all . I dont care if its pain or hurt , i only care if you're with me anot .

2009-04-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

今天有喜也有伤。

被伤害的感受我想我是最了解的。

因为知道被伤害的感觉好痛苦所以我不想伤害人。

可是我还是伤害了一个人，他还是一个好人。

2009-04-11T11:33:00.004+08:00

10/4/09

Yesterday was totally a unlucky day for me , so i dont wanna mentioned much about it . Watched Handsome Suit with Dexter yesterday , its a nice show . Recommended by me . ;D

Just woke up from my sleep , yawns . I am so bored now . I am in love with TongHua english version . The lyrics are so meaningful .

只要你快乐，我这么样都不要紧

2009-04-09T19:06:00.002+08:00

Hahs ! Finally its weekend ! Gosh , i have been waiting for this weekend for days . Today after school went to Jon house with Yuxian , Aron , Chuan sin , Zihan to play mahjong . I chup money with Zihan , heng he win , and i got 5 bucks . ;D . Jordy came after that buying us pizza . ;D Thanks ! All of us left around 6.30 ? And we cabbed home together , but we pangseh Zihan . Its all the taxi-driver's fault , they dont wanna drive 5 . Paisehs ! Just reach home and bath finish .

And now we're planning of going to Tampines 1 around 8 plus . ;D Lols , i wanted to go . So shall see later if we're going ;D .

Dexter went malaysia , so i am freaking bored now . Tomorrow going to town with him and a few friends to movies ! Yuppie ! Its been a long time since i went to town for a movie .

Someone wanna see her name here , thus , i'm going to grant her wish . ;D

Azizah is a STALKER
please be careful of her . ;x
❤

2009-04-08T19:21:00.003+08:00

Today , was another sickening and boring day . Something happened today , but i dont wanna talk about it , because i dont want you to see it . After school went out with Dexter to slack with Jason . Went 4OO plus awhile and we came back home . So freaking bored now . Uhhhss . . . .
Can anyone just ask me out ? I am bored with my life , i am doing the same thing everynow and then . Yawnns , shall blog later , Ciao .

All the love we made cannot be erased

And i promise you that you will never be replaced
❤

2009-04-06T17:51:00.003+08:00

Its so fast , time seriously flies in a blink . From a nobody , i became somebody . In the past , i am nothing but thrash , and i only got a bunch of unfaithful , untrueful friends . Now i got friends , real defination of friends . I am thankful to them , for being part of my life , part of my memory . All that know me and take me as friends , and most important 4N2 . Thanks .

This few days , theres troubles all around my friends , sorry that i cant help much but i'll be there for you guys if you guys need me . You guys gave me a helping hand when i am in my darkest moments , now , i wont abandon you guys and walk away . I will be there to help you walk through that darkest moments of you guys .

I understand the feeling of being alone , being lonely , being anti-ed , being bullied , being despise , being backstabbed , being the topic in everyones mouth . So if any of you need my ears , i will definitely be there .

Went to slack with Dexter && Jason today . Something funny happened , but couldnt speak of it .
&& to that girl , please stop being a stalker , we are laughing at you .

2009-04-05T13:48:00.001+08:00

Alamaks ! Sandy is so boring lahs ! No people jio me out , ass ! I am rotting .

Today when you talked to me ,

i know i lose a love ,

but i got a friend .

2009-04-03T16:04:00.002+08:00

Currently at Jon's house . They are playing mahjong and i am using the computer .

Gonna thanks Jordy for helping me copy my notes and Jerome for helping me doing my colour testing .

I am so bored now , waiting for Dexter to end his Npcc . Yawns .

2009-04-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

Today school was so sickening boring ! Uhhhsss . . . I am so bored nowadays . After school went out with Ruwei && Huisi to TM to eat . After that pei Huisi to her tuition place and we went back to TM to meet Dex . And we went to the same old place , the playground . LOLs . I am lazy to blog , Ciao

2009-03-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

From now on , i wont be counting anymore .
Its time i let go , and continue with my own life .

Today after school went to eat with Ruwei , Dexter . Lols , we are like damnn funny lahs . After eating we went to slack at my house nearby playground . Guess what ? We actually played Crocodile , Blind Mice and Catching with a bunch of kids . Lols , its been a long time since i sweat like that . Hahs ! (:

I want to catch a movie of The Unborn !

2009-03-28T23:52:00.001+08:00

If life could be simple ; isnt it great ?

2009-03-28T16:52:00.003+08:00

It has been Sixty-Five days since you left me .

Today went school to help Mrs Ng with the Annual Awards Day . Everything turned out to be fun indeed . (: I got to learn alot of things and i really had alot of fun with all my friends . During the cookies selling , i have something to share . There was this SCHOOL GUY , who actually so budget , donated 5 cents nia . Want to know who is he ? , ask me . ;D . After the whole thing , Jiaxin , Ruwei , XiaoFong and me went to pluck the flowers . Lols , damnn budget . And we actually went to eat with that .

Mrs ng and us went to Century Square for lunch . THANKS FOR YOU TREAT . ;D
After eating we went to buy Hairbands for our class girls , all paid by Mrs Ng . (: Shes too generous , no where to spend her money . Why do i say that ? Because she actually bought 2O packets of pins , which 1 packet contains 3O . She seriously very Kiasu , typical singaporean . After that we went to buy Had's birthday present and we all went home after that .

Just bathe finish , and i am feeling so bored right now . Didnt have any plans for today . Oh God , someone ask me out please . T.T

Saw my Ex school's people's blog . They actually changed so much . But , why am i still the same ? But it let me understand that , time flies so fast , so fast that i cant keep up to it . But suddenly i thought of you again , you again . Can you teach me how you get me out of your life ?

2009-03-25T21:31:00.003+08:00

Its has been Sixty-Two days since you left me .

Today reached school at 7:30 am . Actually meeting Dexter 6:30 for breakfast , but i actually woke up at 6:45 . Lols ? Reached school , and alot people from our class went too . Mrs Ng treated us Macdonals for breakfast ! Thanks so much lahs ! ;D All of us were eating halfway when Mrs Ng rush us down immediately . Because the P and VP are waiting for us to serve them . Lols ? I will be the one serving coffee . ;D Hooray ! Because i get to play with the Coffee Machine ;D Mrs Ng promised to let me operate . ;D

After school meet Dexter at Changi Hosp , visited his mum awhile and we go off . He accompanied me home . After bathing rush out to meet Daddy , Mummy , Didi in a cab . We went to People's Park , Chinatown . Because mummy want Foot Massage , and her friend introduced there . All of us tried it . Lols , but i was forced to . Its ichy in the first place , but after awhile , i feel like dozing off . So shiok lahs . Lols . After that went to buy some food to eat , and we went home in cab .

Just reach home , and the first thing i did was to play Farm Town . Lols . I know its lame , but t me its total fun . Lols , i too boliao le . Yawns , i am tired , Ciao !

2009-03-24T18:21:00.002+08:00

Its has been Sixty-One days since you left me .

Today school as per normal . After school was all filled with fun . Went to help Mrs Ng bake cookies . Lols , the process was fun and it will always be in my mind . Met Dexter at bus stop and he accompanied me home .

I got something to share with you guys . (: . Few days ago , Dexter went Geylang to have his supper i suppose . Than he and his friends were walking in a alley when some accidents happen . He was molested by the chickens there . They actually got trick to make man go and fcuk them hard man ! The trick is like this , One of their people will called you at your back , and when you turn back , you will get knocked by the chickens infront . The Miss Chicken actually touched Dexter *cough*cough . Lols , smart people will understand what i mean anyway .

Dexter than was all along complaining he got molested , but its like , he got touched for FREE , isn't it wonderful ? Dexter than SOO BHB , said that hes the most handsome one over there , thats why he got touched . Mummy heard it , and said is the Chickens no customer , BOBIAN .

Lols .

First thing i did after i bath was to play Farm Town , i love it man ! Gtg , Ciao

2009-03-23T19:08:00.006+08:00

It has been Sixty days since you left me .

Today i went to school as per normal , the only hilarious thing happened during lunch . I disiao Jordy till very jialat , paisehs !

Teacher actually asked me to be the waitress of the Annual Awards Day . Lols ? 1O hours of CIP points . All i needa do is report on 8am on Wed , and appear on Sat morning and night . And all i needa to do was serve cookies and coffee . Lols ? Not bad idea , i get to play with Black face's coffee machine which cost 2OOO bucks . ;x .

After school met Dexter at school bus stop , and we went to 164 eat . After that went to slack awhile near my house void deck . Came home after awhile , and went online to play my Farm Town , and here i am blogging ! ;D

Baby , can you come back to me ?

我好想念 , 功夫熊猫的你❤

2009-03-22T14:06:00.015+08:00

It has been Fifty-Nine days since you left me .

Today while i'am on the bed , suddenly i have thoughts of you . I was back to the time when we were officially broke up . I was thinking , if i had beg you not to leave me that day , maybe we wont broke up .

While thinking , tears began to fall again . It always fall when i thought of you . From the first day , till the last day , memories are all in my mind . Did you remember how we got together again ? At Toys R Us ? Through that piggyback ?

This is the first very photo we took , back then , we were all having fun . But does good times last ?

This should be the second . (: . We're still so loving back then .
Than , we took our very first kiss at Marina , at the stairs .

This is the first pic taken , when you send me home . We're on bus 1O . Going back from your home . (:

This is the second kiss we took , at a void deck , near my house . We're still so sweet back then .

This is the second time we're taking picture on the bus . Its bus 1O . Back from your home again . (; I remember we took lots of crap pictures that day .

This is the day when you have your 2.4km run at East Coast . I still remembered , i didnt wait for you to finish and went back with Clarissa . Because you need to stay back and clean up . You were angry with me back then . (:This was taken at Toy R Us . Lols , i remembered we went there with Jonathan too . We were playing crazy back then .

Its all fun , all memories in remaining everywhere i go . Did you know how much i missed you ?

Good times really ended so soon , this were the last pictures i captured . So soon , everythings gone in a blink . Do you know how much i miss you now ? Even though i know , you wont come back to me again , but i just dont wanna give up . Its because , in my heart , theres still 3 words i wanna tell you . And its I LOVE YOU

2009-03-21T21:56:00.003+08:00

Its been Fifty-Eight days since you left me .

Today woke up late , than chiong to bathe everything and went to CenturySquare meet Jon , PengSiew , Jordy , Ahboy , Nic . Went to Arcade awhile and we went to watch Mall Cap after that . The show is nice . (: .

After watching went back Arcade as they wanted to Tune . After that Aron came , and Jon , Me and Aron went to watch another show , The Legend Of ChunLi . The show is so boring . Lols . During the show damnn funny . Aron sat beside me and we guys are like playing the popcorn on each other . Somemore he still scare me ehs , but he orbi lahs , got his punishment for doing that ! Wahahas ! I feel evil right now .

After the show Jon and Aron accompanied me home , and they went home after awhile . Right now i'am playing with the facebook Farm Town . My farm is so pretty lahs .

2009-03-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

Its been Fifty-Seven days since you left me .

Didnt blog for this few days , has been staying at home till the day before i went to Jordy's chalet . Anyway Happy Early Birthday to Jordy . Just watch finish all my dramas , have been watching from morning till now . Anyway , i wasn't feel good today . I felt lonely at this very minute . I am all alone at this very minute . I think i should off better drop dead . I felt like its end of the world for me .

I miss you real lots till i dreamt of you yesterday .
You were hugging me tight in your arms , and calling me once more Bee .

2009-03-16T13:28:00.004+08:00

Its been Fifty-Three days since you went away .

Hasn't been going out for this few days . Woke up at 8.30 today for the e-learning thing . And watched Boys Before Flowers all the way till now . I am so bored , alone , cold at home now .

I know that you went abroad , but i didnt have a chance to say goodbye and take care . I know i would never have the chance to do so . Ever since you're gone , i have been walking all along the path alone . No matter how happy i am at the surface , i know deep inside , i'am not . I said before i wont ever interrupt your life again .

Everything is like a show , and i know my role in this play . I am just someone at the very corner , waiting for love to come back . You're the leading character , meeting your destined princess , and carrying on with your bright future with her , but the Her isnt me .
Everything is like this . I know deep inside this will always be the ending , but somehow in my heart , i just wanted to carry on . Maybe people may say i am dumb for waiting a no ending love . But to me , i know its worth , its worth everything .

No one can ever replace you . You're the one and only ❤

2009-03-15T15:14:00.003+08:00

你已经离开我五十二天了

I am so lazy to blog yesterday . I woke up at 1 and watched boys before flowers all the way till midnight . Its so freaking nice .

I just woke up and went to have a bathe , shall continue my show . (:
Ciao

2009-03-13T21:49:00.004+08:00

你已经离开我五十天了

Today another boring school day . I actually stayed in school for at least 4 hours doing nothing because theres parents meeting today , and i am lazy to get home and go back after that . Waited in school Dexter , and we went to eat Mac at siglap . After that meet Jordy in school and we went Jon's house to slack awhile . After that he accompanied me back to school , and i slack with Bianda and Anil all the way till parent's meeting .

My mummy actually got number 14 queue number . But Mrs ng is seriously so naggy . She actually spent an hour on 4 parents , meaning 25 mins each . My mummy was like so sick of waiting , and i am dying of hunger . I actually lied that we gonna go as we have something on later , so she finally let us cut the queue . Sorrys !

After the long waiting its finally food time ! Dexter went with us to Bedok Corner for dinner . Its so yummy lahs ! I actually just got out from bathing . So bored now ! Someone talk to me please ! ;x

我对你有一种很特别的感觉

那就是。 。

命中注定我爱你

不管你会不会回来我身边

我都不建议试试看

如果你真的不回来

那就当作我上辈子欠了你的

2009-03-12T21:19:00.005+08:00

你已经离开我四十九天了

Today school so boring lahs . Alamaks . After school met Dexter and we went home together . Came home and took a nap . Woke up and met Dexter and we went to Century and Tm to find my bag . I fianlly found the bag , its love at first sight man ! ;D

* Beauty is in the eye of the beholder , to me you are handsome in every way beyond skin .

* I never paid much attention to you when we're together , but now we are apart , absence really makes the heart grow fonder

Shall blog tomorrow alrights ?

2009-03-11T17:14:00.007+08:00

已经四十八天了

Today school is so boring . Theres nothing much to do . I am so freaking happy man ! My final piece is finally approved , all i gonna do now is do the colour testing . After school went to take bus 1O with Pengsiew to CGH . Meeting my mummy and brother there and Pengsiew just nice gonna go there for checkup . Mummy brought us went to simei eat Kfc , than went walking around for awhile , and we cab home after that .

This coming march holidays still need to return to school to do my art , alamaks ? Than after that chiong to Jordy's chalet , btw thanks for inviting ;D

我不是因为你的钱才爱你

我什么都可以为你而做

包括牺牲我这条命

*You know who i am referring to .

2009-03-10T17:35:00.002+08:00

已经一个月十五天了

Today school is so boring lahs . Seriously , school is like so no life , but bobian . Gonna chiong my studies , because i want to pass ! After school meet Dexter & XianRong again . Went to eat than slack awhile , than after that go home . I am so glad that i finally drawn out my final art piece . Love it so much mans ! Shall show you guys after i did the colouring .

2009-03-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

已经一个月十四天了
你离开了我那么久了

2009-03-09T21:40:00.005+08:00

Omfg lahs . School life seriously bored me to death man ! So many people was enraged today , especially Jonathan . ;x . Anyway after school met Dexter & XianRong . On the bus was like so hilarious lahs . Ruwei was sitting beside me , then Jiaxin , Xiaofong was like keep laughing about a les joke between me and Ruwei . Than i was like so stupid , i acted les with Ruwei . So many people was like looking at me . Damnn paisehs cans ? Ruwei legs went numb went she wanted to get down the bus . Lols . After that we 3 went to Tm to have our lunch , and went to slack near my block after that .

School is having a 4oth anniversary dinner , Weishan and others wanted to go , but i am still not sure . Its 4o bucks man ! Whats more , theres nothing much to eat , heard from secret teacher . And i didnt know what to wear for that day also . I'am still thinking about it , if Jon and company is going , i think i should be joining .

I am SOO FREAKING EXCITED about the coming March holidays ! I have so much plans for it ! ;D

2009-03-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

睡了。
晚安。

2009-03-07T02:04:00.007+08:00

Today another sickening and boring day in school lahs . After school went to Siglap mac with Jieyun and Jiahui to makan . After that cabbed home together , and i went to meet Dexter , XianRong and one of their friend . Their friend damnn stunning ehs . (; Went to watch Slumbdog millionaire at 4:00 pm . A indeed worth prize award winning show . ;D . But i saw a sneak preview of coming soon , and was like SOO WANNA WATCH . Its only available in midnight , thus , Dexter & XianRong damnn suey , gonna pei me watch . Damnn freaking scary lahs , almost scare my heart out ehs . Nice show , recommended by Sandy ;D . I didnt knew that Thailand cinemas looked like bugis shaw . Only knew it today , went i saw it in the shows . Just came home , but dont dare to sleep . We're yawning like fcuk man ! Slacking in progress .

2009-03-03T21:18:00.002+08:00

真的好高兴
因为我得到了我要的Academic Results
I got Grade 1 for my english . Surprise isnt it ?
失去了我最爱的人
可是我得到了更多
我拥有了一群好朋友
我的成绩也进步了

一直以来我都以为我不能没有你
可是我发现到其实我不需要你
没有了你等于失去的是爱
可是得到的却更多

我好开心

2009-03-02T22:07:00.003+08:00

情爱的我是傻瓜吗？
这一段日子你知道我多难过吗？
面对没有你的日子
好像黑黑一片
我走不下去后面的路
我面对不了自己的心
我不知道如何面对我自己
因为怕受伤放弃了所有机会
我不在乎我自己的命
子在乎你的生活
子要你过得开心，
我的心总是会甜甜的
有人能了解吗
老天爷你在耍我吗？
为什么你给我的东西总要拿回去
你曾经给了我很多的快乐与幸福
可是那些时光总是很快过完
天天得寂寞有人能明白吗？
我心里好寂寞，
可是又不想跟人分担
我害怕一次又一次的伤害
那个无形的刀，
一直在我的心上割我下的肉

很多人都想不开，自杀了
时间真的不会等任何人
世界也是残酷的
我好想好想去一个幸福的世界
可是我知道那是不可能的
我的心，死了吗？
我不感觉到痛不管你做什么，我都没感觉，不建议
我是疯了吗？

2009-03-02T20:57:00.003+08:00

Today is a boring day . School is like so freaking boring cans ? Today went Tm for movies . On the way , Bianda was like keep bickering with Nigel Chua . Alamaks cans ? You in class , bicker with Nigel Ong . Outside bicker with Nigel Chua . Lols . Went to watch Kungfu Chef at gv , with Bianda and Dexter . ;D After that came home than sians all the way till now . I love the english version of TongHua . Its like so freaking nice . ;D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-P8F5xTxtw
A beautiful voice , and talented piano-ist . (:

2009-03-01T19:58:00.002+08:00

PLEASE LAHS ?
A PERSON WHO DOES NOTHING AND THROW EVERYTHING TO ME .
GO TOILET AND DONT FLUSH , NEED ME FLUSH FOR YOU .
WHAT RIGHTS DO YOU HAVE TO SAY ME ?
AND REMEMBER THIS , I AM YOUR SISTER .
FCUKER .

2009-02-28T14:55:00.003+08:00

Today is a so boring day for me . No where to go , stuck at home . All my friends are busy for me . Lols . So bobian , stay at home . =/ Anyone fan of Da Zui Ba ? I am finding all their songs OR all their disc . Anyone got good condition secondhand discman selling ? Best if its got red around it . Do contact me by tagging me at my tagboard . Leave your number . Thanks . I still feel more comfortable using discman .

在家好无聊
朋友们都没时间
快要烂掉了

2009-02-27T14:51:00.004+08:00

Today is a so boring day for . Last day of exam , got home around 1 plus . And theres nothing i can do at home . Sandy has more friends now , but all of them are so busy for me .

我为什么而生存？

活了17年但却不知道我生存的价值是什么

在这个世界，有童话故事吗？

我现在的世界好残忍，好孤独，好冷。

如果我的世界像童话故事里的那不是很好吗？

我梦想的世界是这么样的呢？

一大片的青草地

多多好美的花朵

好凉的天气

一间小小的木屋

我躺在一棵树下

回想我的往事

梦想我的未来

听着好温柔的音乐

好幸福，温暖的感觉喔

可是这可能吗？

我知道这只在故事里出现

原来这几年我白活了

现在，我只希望可以静静的活下

我一直都在告诉自己

如果我有离开的机会，我会走吗？

我的答案，会

我好想离开这个伤心地

去一个没人会认得我的地方

去一个对我很陌生的地方

我想环游这个圆圆的地球

想看看世界各地不同的风景

我感受各地的感觉

这个圆圆的世界不会为任何人停动

时间不停的在走

一眨眼，我有可能以不存在

生老病死，是每个人都需要经过的路程

可是我们永远不知道几时我们会离开

死不是很可怕

最可怕的是离开你爱的人

子貢問曰、有一言、而可以終身行之者乎。子曰、其恕乎、己所不欲、勿施於人。

Adept Kung asked: "Is there any one word that could guide a person throughout life?"

The Master replied: "How about 'shu' [reciprocity]: never impose on others what you would not choose for yourself?"

人生是很难捉摸的

不要浪费自己的时间

因为这世界不会给你多余的时间

好想静静的躺一下

再见

2009-02-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Am i magnetic or something ? Gosh . Anyway , today is funny day . Lols . Boring school life , but after school , me and Bianda went to Century to meet Jiaxin , Leon , Jonathan . Lols . Damnn funny lahs . Gosh . Anyway , i am so bored right now . Theres nothing i can do at home .今天，我想了很久，等你是我的借口吗？是不是因为怕再次受伤，所以不敢面对和接受另外一段感情？你知不知道，当你走时，你带走了我的什么？你带走了我那颗爱你心，带走了我爱你的勇气，带走了我的理智。现在的我，和僵尸也没什么分别。他们没有感情，没有伤痛，没有生存的理由。我现在，还算是人吗？我的心里真的好痛。。好痛。。有人能理解吗？现在的我，不是为自己而活了。我的痛苦有人能了解吗？我好想哭，可是我的眼泪已经干了。我好希望老天爷能拿走我所有的感觉，感情。让我做了个不会了解什么是爱，什么是痛的人好吗？一段新感情能救我吗？可是谁会那么傻？明知是代替品也不建议？我真的快要垮了。

2009-02-24T22:09:00.009+08:00

Dont worries , i wont bother your life . Its only me , myself alone waiting . Its my own problem , not yours . You dont need to bother . I'm sorry . 今天我们就像陌生人 . Sandy's so bored now . Shes still daydreaming . My illness is getting from bad to worse . I sound so man seriously . Lols . Hmms . Didnt really have anything to blog about , see ya other days . Ciao

我在傻傻等待没有结果的爱情

我知道但是我不管

2009-02-23T18:16:00.007+08:00

Maybe i just dont get it that we're over . Sorry .

Just came back from Orchard , on the bus 518 alot of thoughts flashed through my mind . Today you told you you're not the perfect guy , and not to waste time on you . But let me tell you , after deep thoughts just now , you're worth everything . You may not be perfect in your eyes , in my friend's eyes , but you're perfect in my eyes . You will always be perfect deep down in my heart . I am willing to waste the time on you , i am willing to wait till the day you return . You made a difference in my life , and it will always be only you . I will wait for you . I am sorry that i tied you up in the past , if you're willing to give me a chance i'll wait . I will wait till you finished your O's lvl , i know you wanted to concentrate study now , and i can wait for that to end . You're worth all my waiting . I really wanted to tell you how much i love you , how much i needed you and how much i miss you . But i have no idea how to tell you that . I know you may love me no more , you may need me no more , you miss me no more , but i do . And i dont mind . I know deeply in my heart that , i love you . That whole year isnt play , isnt puppy love . I really loves you . I know deeply , no one can replace you . No one . No matter how nice that person treated me , somehow they cant replace you . Because i loves you too much . When we're together , i didnt cherish the time . And when you're gone , i regretted everything . When we're together , i didnt know i love you so much . But when you're gone , i finally knew how much i love you . You're the lights lighting up my whole life , without you , i cant see the road infront of me . 我不想在隐瞒，可是马江磊，我真的很爱你。我真的很想念你。我真的很需要你。我愿意等你考完试。我愿意等待。应为你值得。我终于知道我要什么，那就是你。没有了，我的世界也变黑了，我看不到前面的路。不管你怎样对待我，我也不见意。23 January 你离开了我，可是我不敢面对，所以我选择了逃避，可是现在我不想再逃避。我想等你。No one can replace you in my heart .

I LOVE YOU

will you cry if i'm gone ?

2009-02-22T20:56:00.003+08:00

Am i really that stupid ? Seriously i didnt knew that you came on friday until today . Nobody tells me . That msg i send you on friday is only meant for you . I only sent it to you . I wanted you to come , i wanted to see you . Sorry that i misunderstood your intention . Since you love me no more , means you dont even care about me rights ? Even if i am dead now , will you care ?
Jieyun , do you think 我不知道会比知道happy ? 没看到会比看到happy? Sorry , but you're wrong . I admit that i'll cry when i see him , when i know , but i will be happy . Seriously , do you know how much i yearn for him to be there ? No matter how happy i am now , i still feel that something is missing from it . And its him . He had became part of my life , and i will wait . I'll wait until the day he come back.

LET ME TELL YOU I STILL LOVE HIM ALOT

2009-02-21T10:59:00.003+08:00

Today is the second day in my chalet . ;D . Yesterday i really had fun . We played mahjong , taiti , macham all of us like gambler like that . Sorry to him , that i tied you up in the past , but its because i cant afford to lose you . You're important to me , and i dont want to lose you . If theres a chance again , i promise i'll changed . But i dont think there will be . Busy day , shall blog later after my bbq . (:

2009-02-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

Today another boring school day life lahs . T.T . Duhhs . Guess where am i now ? LOLS . Currently in my Chalet room lahs . Now with Dexter , Xianrong . Others coming later . Just now in school , i recieve some shocking news again . From ? Its a Secret . ;D . Hmms . But no matter how happy this chalet was , something is still missing no matter what . 只有你明白我在说什么。我知道，你还在乎。Update later . ;D

2009-02-19T17:55:00.005+08:00

Today is seriously another boring day lahs . That Aron today keep disiao me . Nigel also . T.T . So fast , tml jiu chalet le . ;D . So freaking looking forward lahs . ;D Just now went to TM fairprice buy ingredients for the beehoon . Dexter say i macham aunty . ROARRS ! Want die uhhs ? ;x I know i aunty , but dont like that lahs . Lols , so freaking looking forward lahs . I bet i can sleep tonight . Lalalas . I seriously feel that its not the time for bgr for me yet . I am so sick of relationships . Maybe i am so tired about it . I am sick of boyfriends . I am sick of guys . Am i turning les ? LOLS . Sigh .

2009-02-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

Today i actually found out some shocking news . He was lying to me all along . All along the way when we're together . The breakup was actually planned before hand . Probations are only excuses , but i am the only one stupid enough who dont understand . I really wanted to ask one of my sister , you like him ? Is it ? I really wanted to know the truth . The facts i see and hear are telling me that you like him , is it the truth ? Or is it my mind toying with me ? I really wanted to confront you today , but you didnt pick up my calls . Today meet dexter on bus 1o and we went to slack awhile near my house . After awhile went home , and went for dinner with family . After that meet Dexter , BingJie , Stanley at TM , and went to walk walk awhile . Dexter wanted to smoke at the CenturySquare staircase . But there was this security guard keep following us , and he keep drive us out of the staircase . Lols . The security guard face is totally so pissed off lahs . After that we went pasalamam walk walk awhile , and i needa go home in awhile later . Dexter so sweet lahs ! Accompanied me home . (: I thought of it seriously , if i still loves him . But hes damnn cruel to me . Seriously , i thought to myself that i should wake up , and face the fact that hes gone forever . Hes not coming back into my life. Hes not my boyfriend anymore . He dont belong to me anymore . I know i must wake up . I cant continue living in this nightmare . I dont wanna hurt . I know that feeling more than anyone else . When hes hurting me , i hurt someone else and i dont want that to happen again . Dexter is a nice guy , and thats what i kept telling myself . I dont wanna lose this nice guy , cause if its lost , its gone forever .
Theres 3 brothers living in this world . Their names are called Lost , Regrets , Cherish . But we dont meet them in the same time . Lost is always the first one we met and followed by Regrets . Cherish is always the third one to appear . I learnt my lesson , and i wanted to cherish , before losing it again . I know if i can let it go , my life will be much more better . I know this is the only right choice .

2009-02-17T20:51:00.007+08:00

People coming to my Chalet . ;D

FRIENDS

Dexter*
Jonathan*
Nigel*
Bianda
WeiShan
HyeYeon
Jieyun*
PengSiew
Jeco
JiaXin
XiaoFong
Ruwei
Louis*
Kevin*
Patrick
Dhannish*
Jiahui
Clarrissa
Jordy
Stanley*
XianRong*
Angela
Hurairah
Byzura
Hana
Azizah
Afiq
ZiHan*
Andy
Mrs Ng
Ms Lim

FAMILY

Ahma
Dagu
Xiaogu Family {4}
Ahyi Family {5}

Everyone is WELCOME to come . ;D . Just tell your friend you wanna come along , and inform me about it . (:

2009-02-17T19:10:00.005+08:00

Today another boring school day . I am drawing dead garden for my art course work . ;D . Teacher say next week can start on it le . Shall blog the photos when i have them with me alrights ? Thanks Dexter again , for pei-ing me home . After that we went to slack near my house and one of his friend came . I forget his name again . Shty ! Paisehs ! After that i went back home first , cause brother help me buy mac home . ;D . Yawns , now so boring cans ? Wanted to learn how to hack Pet's society , but too stupid dont know how . Bobians . Alamaks . I am so freaking bored now . T.T . Is it really the end ?

2009-02-16T22:28:00.001+08:00

No matter how i stick it together , theres still scars all over it .

2009-02-16T21:50:00.005+08:00

Finally another boring school day end . Time seriously flies in a blink . 4 more days to my chalet . Hope all my friends will be there . Dexter came to find me at school again and we went back together . We went to eat Long John at tampines mall . After that chiong home to bath , than pei mummy go Geylang eat . After Geylang come home , eat another meal again . I am so bloated lahs . Going burst soon . Jieyun today asked me a question again , Do i still love MJL ? Whats the point of asking me , when he dont . I see no point in answering . Cause everything is meaningless . As from what you hear from the song , 爱太痛 . The song is totally my feelings . Shall update soon ! ;D

2009-02-15T17:36:00.003+08:00

Dont play with fire , you're tempting me .

Temptation is irristable , but i'll try to control .

-SLPC

2009-02-14T22:25:00.006+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO DEXTER❤

Firstly , happy valentine's day to all of you guys . ;D . Today is a bad day for me uhhs . I had a lonely valentine day . ROARRS ! But thanks to dexter , for pei-ing me . FOR ??? Do homework and my art . WIERDOS !! Valentine day do homework ? I feel wierd too . Than stanley came . He helped me buy mac , so thanks . And time flies in a blink . We went to tampines mall , as dexter want withdraw money . After that we went 5xx buy Ice-Cream phone . Stanley so sweet lahs , want buy for girlfriend . But too unlucky , the phone kena bought must wait for 3 days . ;D . He orbi lahs , who ask him keep say me pig . Bastard ! ROARRS . Dexter so FREAKING SWEET LAHS . Hes now beside me . ;D THANKS LOTS SERIOUSLY ! ;D you're seriously so sweet , thanks . ;D . You're really a nice guy . But am i worth it ?

2009-02-13T19:08:00.007+08:00

Changed a new blogskin today && deleted all my old posts . I want to start afresh . I want to forget him . I want to continue my life . I hope this time , i am not lying to myself again . ;( Today is another boring day cans ? I was wearing Ruwei's specs from ytd till now . And i wore it till i reach home . There were some who were looking at me as if i was a Freak . Duhhs . Thanks Dexter again for pei-ing me today , and helping me with my art . Loves lahs ! You're so sweet . ;D . Below is my current favourite song lyrics . Do hear it . Its full of meanings (:

吴克群 - 爱太痛
Kenji Wu Ke Qun - Ai Tai Tong
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吃不能吃睡不能睡
chi bu neng chi shui bu neng shui

没有了你全都不对
mei you le ni quan dou bu dui

我都学不会把爱敷衍
wo dou xue bu hui ba ai fu yan

用笑容来把眼泪催眠
yong xiao rong lai ba yan lei cui mian

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
xiao bu neng xiao ku bu gan ku

人不像人鬼不像鬼
ren bu xiang ren gui bu xiang gui

朋友都说这不过失恋
peng you dou shuo zhe bu guo shi lian

但我却连呼吸都胆怯
dan wo que lian hu xi dou dan qie

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
neng bu neng bu ai le yin wei ai tai tong le

我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
wo tong de kuai si le que wu fa ba ni wang le

能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
neng bu neng bu ai le ai qing ta tai tong le

我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
wo tong de kuai si le que wu fa ba ai qing ge she

我不能睡
wo bu neng shui

吃不能吃睡不能睡
chi bu neng chi shui bu neng shui

没有了你全都不对
mei you le ni quan dou bu dui

我都学不会把爱敷衍
wo dou xue bu hui ba ai fu yan

用笑容来把眼泪催眠
yong xiao rong lai ba yan lei cui mian

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
neng bu neng bu ai le yin wei ai tai tong le

我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
wo tong de kuai si le que wu fa ba ni wang le

能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
neng bu neng bu ai le ai qing ta tai tong le

我不能够不能够不爱了
wo bu neng gou bu neng gou bu ai le

吃不能吃睡不能睡
chi bu neng chi shui bu neng shui

2009-02-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to MJL ❤